Adjusting

It is amazing how quickly I am adjusting to Phil not being here. I don't mean in any sense that I don't miss him, because I do! I just mean that it amazes me how less lost I feel, and how more centered I am. I try to keep myself out of the 'I just miss him' zone, and in the 'he'll be back soon' (at least for a little while) zone. I can't think beyond that, because it's all just too big right now. So I am focusing on when he comes back, and not on how long he'll be back, or how long he'll be gone again.

The kids are doing fine. They too, have adjusted. Isaac says that Daddy's gone on a 'hairplane' and he's 'in da sky!'. He's now dropped the pizza, which was his initial answer: "Daddy on da hairplane get me pizza!". I figure he's tired of waiting for the pizza.

Liam and Hannah hardly talk about him. I think it is a coping mechanism. They miss him, I know that, but the less they talk about him, the less they dwell on it. I've not told them of anything that's coming up, because I think it will be too hard right now, but soon enough, they'll have to 'deal' all over again, and that's worry enough.

Liam's at his last morning of school. Then he is officially done first grade.
Hannah finished Kindergarten on Wednesday.
Then I will have all my kids, home with me for two months. I am excited, but nervous. I'm going to be tired! And I am already grouchy.

I'm already enjoying not having to pack lunches! That's a free 15 minutes in the morning!! WOOT!

I'm letting the kids have free days for a few days, and then they'll slowly get back into doing a few worksheets and crafts, creative writing, etc. Not a LOT, I don't want to over work them (especially Liam, who needs the break) but I can't risk that he'll forget over summer either. So I am hoping to find a happy medium of working in fun activities that also keep his skills brushed up.

I am so tired.

Beyond tired.

Physically exhausted.

I need a sleep holiday.

Thank goodness it is Friday!